After learning some html to try and make this blog i got very frustrated with how much there was to learn and almost gave up, im glad i kept looking at how to do things and finally found a template thing that makes sense!
I am so excited to start blogging on neocities :D
Today i have to go outside to get some more toilet paper and top up my electricity meter, i am very tempted to go to the shop that sells nice salad but the walk is a little too far for me and ive got to go out to the doctors tomorrow so i will go then instead. i have a very busy week ahead of me an i am not looking forward to it, on thursday i am getting a tooth removed and then on saturday i am getting an ultrasound on my eyes to make sure my optic nerves arent swollen, and if they are im going to need a head scan pretty quickly :/ i am very anxious that its going to turn out that there is something wrong with my eyes because i have just not been able to catch a break this year so far and its just my luck for that to continue lol
I feel very demoralised looking at everyone elses sites, i want to have sites like that but i barely know any coding and its so intimidating learning it all and i hate that its going to take such a long time :( im terrible at learning new skills because i always want to be good at them straight away and get so frustrated when im not good. i feel like an idiot for using an entire website template but i have no idea how else to make a blog like this otherwise and it seems really really hard :( This site has everything i want functionally but it doesnt look like i want it to which is upsetting me but ill just have to live with it